Its been a while that I have been in a group message. Girl group messages are the best! Today, we got into talking about faking orgasms and any if us had ever faked one. One of my friends mentioned that she had and of coarse I was curious. She just said that sometimes she just wanted that person to finish. You bet your sweet ass I had something to say about that and this also goes to other women that might be doing the same.
I have not and will not fake an orgasm! I did go on a mini rant about this. If you do not know how my body works I will let you know because everyone is different. Also I see it as a form of lying, I mean if someone is not doing a good job don't you want them to do better? And if you don't you are evil! JK. Or if something is hurting you all you would have to say is, that's kind of hurting me can you please stop and yes I have had to do that. Its just that easy. If you don't wan this person to feel bad they should be happy as fuck that you are even letting them be intimate with you. If they try to make you feel bad, should you even be having sex with them?
The reason I have this type of feedback is because I've been that girl that would fall for the stupid guilt trips and manipulation! It wasn't until I realized what my self worth is that this began to change.
I recall a certain someone and do keep in mind this is before self love Dee came along. He told me that I was the biggest girl he had been with. After I had told him I had feelings for him. Let that sink in for a second. He made me feel like no one would want to be with me because of that. I felt like trash but the truth is that the trash was him. And yes I did keep seeing him a couple of months after that up until last year. He saw a good girl and took advantage of that for his pleasure. I can admit I was an idiot but even worse, I didn't love myself. What did I do when he came crying to me when his life was falling apart? I hugged him as he cried. I don't believe in hurting when I've been hurt. spreading that around wont make you any happier.
I know I got a bit personal but this just became one of those things that I've learned from and have overcome. If any of you have even gone through anything similar feel free to contact me.
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