I've ever been all hat good at making friends. In grade school it was easier. I was usually in classes with the same groups of people and we all kind of knew each other. When you spend enough time around people you start to talk and socialize, its in our nature. After high school I kept in touch with a selective group of friends. As the drama unfold back in those Myspace days. Many girls came and went through our group. It some how always ended up being the original set of girls.
Fast forward some 6-7 years later to my mid 20's. My social network ( the real life kind) became work. I don't feel very comfortable getting too close to people at work now. I rather be cool and keep a distance than have drama at work. Although I have met some awesome people at previous jobs that I still keep in touch with.
After being at my current job for 3 years now, I realized that they are the people I spent the most time with. I had mentioned in a previous post this was also another reason I wanted to start school. To socialize with new people with hopefully some similar interests. In my psychology class I chose to sit upfront because I cant see far at that well and luckily the girls in that section turned out to be super cool. There's a total of 4 of us they are is 18, 20 and 28. I know it might sound a bit lame but when we exchanged phone numbers some weeks ago, I was so happy and exited. We had a small study session the week after that and I came to realize that most of us are struggling through something in our lives at the moment but what I really liked about these girls was the way the chose to deal with their hardships. It wasn't by doing drugs or drinking. They chose to keep busy with school, a positive outlet. It made me feel so normal. They aren't about partying and going to bars, not that there's anything wrong with that but its just not my thing anymore. Even if I don't keep in tough with this new network of people I makes me hopeful about future classes and the new people I will keep meeting each semester. It will be pretty cool if I run into them years down the line or I can help hem in anyway once I have my career.
Even though I complain about being tired and how much homework I have. I am addicted to school and learning. I am really enjoying having something that keeps me not just busy but in a productive positive way. And that's just my Psychology Class. I just came home from a mini study session with one of the girls in my Women Studies class. That's pretty much hat has been going on with me lately. oh and I have a "date" next week even though I kind of don't look at it that way. Les see how that goes.
Good night and thank you for reading my blog!
Wednesday, November 11, 2015
Wednesday, November 4, 2015
2002
Dear 13 Year Old Dennise,
Lets see its about 6:00 pm on a Wednesday. You probably didn't go to school again. Just the thought of going to school gives you knots in your stomach until you throw up. This will continue until you drop out of high school in 2007. Don't worry so much abut things that you cant change. I know that you have this urge to help people but first you have to be able to help yourself. I'm not here to tell you how crappy it will be, I'm here to give you some advice.
Stop over eating and talk to someone. Read more and go to school! You are not ugly, you have so much beauty within which matters s much more. Sorry you didn't have an older sister that was there to help you with your hair and make up. Don't be scared of what people think of you. Stay true for yourself. You should probably watch less TV because its filled with evil commercials! Deep down inside you've always known that you are meant for something great, never forget that!
The one that u will connect the most after "growing up" is your brother. Mom and Dad will speak to each other like old friends, this will take some years. There is so much you have left to experience. Your first true love will come at age 24 during summer. Keep in mind that you don't need a mans approval to feel good about yourself. Learning is the only way you will be able to weed out bed men. You will make great friends during high school even though you may have some bumps down the road they will be there for you.
Your anxiety and depression will peak in your ate teens but once you start going to therapy you will be able to control it.
Love,
26 Year Old Dennise
Lets see its about 6:00 pm on a Wednesday. You probably didn't go to school again. Just the thought of going to school gives you knots in your stomach until you throw up. This will continue until you drop out of high school in 2007. Don't worry so much abut things that you cant change. I know that you have this urge to help people but first you have to be able to help yourself. I'm not here to tell you how crappy it will be, I'm here to give you some advice.
Stop over eating and talk to someone. Read more and go to school! You are not ugly, you have so much beauty within which matters s much more. Sorry you didn't have an older sister that was there to help you with your hair and make up. Don't be scared of what people think of you. Stay true for yourself. You should probably watch less TV because its filled with evil commercials! Deep down inside you've always known that you are meant for something great, never forget that!
The one that u will connect the most after "growing up" is your brother. Mom and Dad will speak to each other like old friends, this will take some years. There is so much you have left to experience. Your first true love will come at age 24 during summer. Keep in mind that you don't need a mans approval to feel good about yourself. Learning is the only way you will be able to weed out bed men. You will make great friends during high school even though you may have some bumps down the road they will be there for you.
Your anxiety and depression will peak in your ate teens but once you start going to therapy you will be able to control it.
Love,
26 Year Old Dennise
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