In Winter of 2010 things were a bit harder, I was making $350.00 a month and that only covered my rent I was on food stamps for the 2nd time. My mother was living in Mexico. My father living with his baby momma and his 2 young sons and my brother was I jail for the 2nd time. I was living with my friend from high school, Abby and her family in a 6 bedroom house. It was never a dull moment living there. They offered me the stable home that I hadn't had since I was 13. I was alone in a very real way, away from my immediate family. That previous fall I had started attending this WIA Program at a local art center for children. I would work the receptionist desk on Wednesday's and Saturday's. I learned simple things like answering the phone professionally to being trusted to close after the classes ended. Tuesday's and Thursday's I would tutor regular and special needs kids. I also took a graphic design/art class with the coolest teacher ever! I would not be where I am if it wasn't for that program. I didn't have a car so my good friend Jay and I would walk to work which was 3 miles from home, so we could save on bus fare and buy $0.99 cheeseburgers. That would be our meal for the day. We would leave my house like 2 hours early so we would have enough time to get to work and cool down. Even thinking about it now it makes me shed a few tears. I would always tell myself, its going to be worth it everything you are going through will be worth it. Every night that I went to sleep I would thank God that I had somewhere to sleep had something to eat and that I could take care of myself.
While working in that at center I went through my 1st heartache. Looking back now that was nothing. Months after that I started dating my 1st boyfriend El Vaquero. I also accomplished a lot while in this program I got my license, GED and I met Yasmin my current therapist.
So when I was able to buy myself this laptop and I was setting it up. I stopped and looked back for a second it made me cry kind of how I am now. I truly feel that I have come so far from where I was. I appreciate everything I'm learning along the way because you never stop learning. I know I don't have much but everything I have I have worked for and I am only getting started.
I start college next month. I always knew I wanted to go to school have a job I just didn't know how to get started. It hasn't been easy but I know that I'm on my way. Not going to lie I kind of always envied people that still live with both their parents and had to only worry about going to school. But maybe that's not the path I'm suppose to follow. I do know that I don't want my future children to worry about not having enough money to pay the rent, money for food or having to worry about always locking your door before you change in your room because of the peeping tom in the back of the house. Having nightmare about it all the time. Which was always kind of a joke to my father and trust me It wasn't very funny on my end. Even through those moments I would tell myself that my kids will not go through that. everything I am doing to better my future is for them. I hope to share this blog with them one day. Well, it's already 10 I have to sleep, working 12 hour days is very tiring. Oh! One last thing I got a kickass tattoo last week of myself we kind of, its the painting that El Terco made. When I got it I knew I wanted to get it tattooed and I finally just went for it! Picture below. Do keep in mind its not finished yet.
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